realization

So in 2 days we will find out if I met my goal! My goal starting in the middle of August was to get down to 140lbs by the end of September. I am not a girl who is too fidgety about saying how much I actually weigh. It doesn't really matter in the end. I just want to be healthy and skinny :D Anyways, my top weight ever was 159lbs. But when I set this goal in August (actually Jake set it, one for him and one for me)I weighed 153lbs. Whew. So 13lbs lost in a month and a half. I was really nervous when he set the goal. I didn't think there was any way I could lose that much by the end of Sept. That was a lot of weight. And I have been trying to lose weight for a while. Its not been going as well as I would like. But here we go, I said "lets do it!" I want to be skinny again like I was in high school. Those were the good days :) I am really uncomfortable with my stomach. Thats the one thing I really want to change. I love doing sit ups in my dance class because I really hope that its helping get that area flat again, as well as the weight loss :) Anyways, I have been really trying this past month and a half. Having a short term goal quickly showed to be better than my long time goal of getting back down to 120-130lbs. In this goal I could see the deadline, and it wasn't that far ahead of me. I had to be careful, and deligent. I got really sick for about 2 weeks (ended a week ago) and I didn't lose any weight that whole time, but thankfully I didn't gain any back either. I just maintained. Because it was so close to being the end of Sept. when I finally felt better and got back into the swing of things I felt like I wouldn't realize my goal. However, I got a glimpse of hope this morning when I weighed in at 140.2lbs!!! I just might cross that finish line in 2 days at either 140lbs, or lower! I am so crazy excited. I hope it happens! Its normal to flexuate a little, so I wouldn't be surprised if I end up weighing 141lbs tomorrow and still make it down to 140lbs on the 30th. We will see. The end is near!